Its not healthy for me to be alone. I understand that. All these thoughts come rushing to my head and i start feelings sick. I don’t feel like i have a place to call home. I keep getting in trouble and it is really wearing down on me. I know this isnt where i should be. I just want to break down and give up. I want to sleep all day and never wake up. But even when i sleep someone comes to mind. someone who shouldnt be there anymore. The pain still feels my body, and my eyes fill with tears. how many months has it been now? “you never get over your first true love” is it possible that you were mine, but i wasnt yours? because you seem to be doing just fine without me. how did this happen to us? Is this real or is it a dream? will one day we have a face to face conversation? these things go through my mind so much. For right now, im just going to sit here. and try not to give up. Im going to sit here and tell myself it will all get better. Eventhoe deep down i dont believe it.